Tuesday, June 30, 2009

How SG Found His Kink

A couple of weeks ago, pup posed the following question on her blog: "When and how did you discover your kinky side?" I suspect that's an intriguing and tricky one for many of us, since it's likely to refer to feelings and urges that first surfaced many moons ago. For my part, I can't point to one single watershed moment where my 'nilla innocence was lost. Rather, it's been a gradual process of discovery, accelerated hugely over the past decade or so by that rather handy gadget called the interweb - of which a little more later.

Thinking way, way back, my earliest kinky stirrings probably occurred even before puberty. I remember enjoying my older sister's Nancy Drew mystery books, where the plucky teen sleuth would inevitably be captured by the villain just before the denouement. If was really lucky, there would be a monochrome pen-drawn illustration of our heroine bound and gagged on the floor. I must have been only seven at the time.

A couple of years later, I had an "escapology competition" with my younger female cousin. I bound her wrists and timed her escape - and she did the same to me. I don't recall feeling aroused but I do remember feeling mortified when my mother came in and found me desperately trying to wriggle free. She didn't make a big deal of it. The same cousin I restrained using a lifejacket as a sort of SJ, while we were on a sailing holiday - quite possibly in the same year - putting it on her with her arms trapped inside it. This is probably where my fetish for inflatable bondage started, too. I rarely see her these days, but I'm sure she remembers those experiences - not that they'll ever be discussed!

A BBC TV adaptation of Tom Sharpe's "Blott on the Landscape" in the early 80s alerted me to the fact that other people got a real kick out of tying and being tied. I featured extended scenes of bedroom bondage played out between George Cole (playing a dodgy toff with a taste for submission) and Julia McKenzie (playing his dizzy Mistress). In one particularly memorable scene, his wife finds him tied to the bed in baby clothes with a dummy strapped in his mouth.

I immediately started devouring all the Tom Sharpe books I could lay my mitts on. Most of them were unashamedly sexually explicit and kinky. I didn't care that he was satirising the corrupt ruling classes by disdainfully treating their sexual peccadillos as an Achilles heel. I just wanted to know more about rubber fetish, breath play etc.

The first music video that featured fetish wear which aroused me was one by funk-rocker Rick "Superfreak" James. I can't recall the song and I've yet to find it on YouTube, but it featured a bevy of women playing with each other in black, shiny PVC or latex. I saw it maybe twice, but it left a big impression on me. If anyone knows which one it is, I'd be very grateful if you could let me know. It's probably appalling, but it's formative nevertheless.

But it wasn't until the web came along in the late 90s that a whole cornucopia of kink opened up. This seems crazy now, but I actually used to stay late at work to surf early bondage web sites such as Secret Magazine, where there were actual pictures of sexy women all tied up and looking like they were enjoying it. I found out about delights such as single gloves, ball gags and sleepsacks - and it's been downhill ever since! ;-)


Saturday, June 27, 2009

O Is For Orgasm - A Meme

On catching up with blogs, i discovered this orgasmic meme on Vanilla Impaired. Oh yes! So i thought i'd add my input to the mix:

1. What’s your favourite way to have an orgasm?
Being taken from behind - doggy style (what else?!) It excites me greatly and makes me feel very animalistic.

2. Do you use a sex toy? Hands? or both?
Yes - sometimes a toy, sometimes hands - sometimes both!

3. Do you have a favourite time of day or night that you like to pleasure yourself or have sex?
There's something about Saturday afternoons.... can't put my finger on it (well, that's not strictly true!) and definitely sleepy Sunday mornings - they are wondrous!

4. Do you feel you have different types of orgasms?
Yes i do - i have finally realised that i am able to have different orgasms - and hard to believe, it's only something that i've discovered in the last few years.

5. Do you have a position or a technique that always guarantees an orgasm?
Aside from a Hitachi wand??! That's a sure-fire way to guarantee one. As for positions, it seems to be when i'm being taken from behind, or bending over a table, and being restrained and gagged in some way - that whole combination works for me.

6. Is having your clit directly stimulated pleasurable for you? What about after an orgasm?
Yes, it's very pleasurable! It does vary from time to time. Sometimes it's ready for more after a short while and other times it will just be annoying.

7. Do you masturbate/pleasure yourself?
Uhmmm..... what do you think??! i actually do believe that everyone does (even if they deny it).

8. Has your self pleasuring repertoire/routine/technique changed or evolved over time?
Not a great amount, i have to admit! An old faithful technique seems to be a favourite for me, but i have always enjoyed new ways of doing things. So it's a mix really.

9. Are sex toys part of your self pleasuring or with a partner? Or both?
Both - toys form part of my self pleasuring, as well as when SG uses them on me, as He loves to force me to orgasm. i don't have much of a say in the matter at times. i've used a vibe on Him too and that was good fun!

10. If you enjoy using sex toys, how often do you upgrade your equipment?
Not much since getting the Hitachi! It has been an amazing toy and the others do get overshadowed by it, because it is just so amazing. But i am always happy to experiment with more toys! i have my eye on a Lelo...

11. Whats the most intense orgasm you have ever had?
i think that's way too personal to share!

12. How often do you orgasm? Daily, more than once a day, weekly, monthly….???
When SG allows me... so that could be several times a day when i am with Him. Through the week, it might be just the once or twice. It varies, but i have to ask for permission first if i want to play.

13. Do you regard orgasm to be a stress reliever?
For sure! It certainly helps me get off to sleep too.

14. What happens to you after orgasm? Full of energy, a bit lala or ready to go to sleep?
As above - usually makes me feel very relaxed and sleepy... zzzzz.

15. Have you ever squirted?
No, i don't think i ever have. It's something that intrigues me and i've read about women that can.

16. Do you fantasize when you masturbate? Or do you just get right down to it?
Sometimes, or SG will describe a scene for me to imagine in my head. Then there are other times, when we just get right down and dirty!

17. What do you like about having an orgasm? Is it important you have an orgasm every time?
It's just the most incredible feeling that when it's good, it erupts through my body and makes me feel so alive. When it's like that, it makes me crave an orgasm every time - i know i am greedy and then i expect even more!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Use Your Head

So, SG's 'purchase relating to the circumference of my head' is being delivered at some point today.

Shall we have a guess what it could be...?

(i'm just off to bed now and He's given me a free play... woo hoo!)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


It's been a busy time for me, hence the quietness...

For all of those curious cats (and imps), here's the first peek of the new bondage mittens - as modelled by SG(!). He sent me this photo as a teaser. i should quickly add that it's probably the only time He will be wearing them!

i got to experience them for the first time at the weekend. Wearing them made me feel pretty vulnerable, especially when SG used the D-rings to attach them to the bedpost. And not before blindfolding, ball-gagging and spanking me, to then have His way with me - doggy-style.... and it was delicious!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

HNT - Play me

From a latex playtime session...


No more news from the 'mass measurement' exercise - apparently it's still in the making!

BUT... a new one was taken - the circumference of my head (it's 21.5 inches) - SG won't tell me what that's needed for.

AND... SG's latest purchase for His pup is a pair of leather bondage mittens. They are in hand (haha), awaiting my ickle paws to experience them this weekend.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Elements Of Love

Like the sunshine,
Your warm radiates through me.

Like the rain cloud,
You know how to make me wet.

Like the storm,
Your passion strikes a chord within.

Like the rainbow,
You paint my skin many colours.

Like the snowfall,
Your love covers so deep.

Like the wind,
You blow me away.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

HNT - Peek-a-boo

Not sure if this counts as a proper HNT... but i was about to become half-nekid!


Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Think Kink.... But When?

Latest news on new goodies SG is purchasing:

In relation to the 18 measurements He took, the item in question is still in the process of being (hand)made. All i know is that it's going to be a bespoke latex garment... oooh i iz excited pup!

From the long list of restraints SG plans to buy, i've been told it includes a pair of leather mittens - so He can stop any temptation i get of playing with myself, and torment me instead...

While i'm here, i thought i'd throw out a question to ask you all:

When and how did you discover your kinky side?

Indulge me with your stories... i'd love to hear them.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Cum Again?

i thought i'd be kind enough to give you the highlights of another intense scene that SG put me through last weekend....

... and i've just managed to delete the whole post i'd just written and was about to publish!! :-( Grrrr.... well anyway, here are the photos and summary, as i can't write it all again!

Basically, SG made me ride Him last Sunday morning, muzzling me first, and allowed me a yummy orgasm. He then tied me spreadeagled to the bed and tickled me - quite a torment in itself! Then He spanked and cropped my bottom:

He then decided i needed more anal training and used the big butt plug and pink vibe on me similtaneously. It made me feel very horny and filled, and i was able to have an anal orgasm, quickly followed by another in my pussy when He turned the vibe up full speed and let rip.

i felt very satisfied as i lay exhausted in His arms after, still muzzled, but smiling behind it.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

HNT - Tartan

Nothing arty this time... just natural goodness!

Happy HNT!

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Plug In, Tune Out

SG's message read:

"you need to set up the stockade and be waiting in your boots, latex dress and gloves for My pleasure."

He was due to arrive later that evening and somehow i left the setting up and dressing up to the last minute. So when He arrived, i was still fumbling to put on one of my latex gloves. He asked me why i wasn't ready and i admitted that i had run out of time. The evening hadn't got off to a good start.

"Follow Me." He said.

i followed Him, on all fours, to the bedroom to kneel at His feet. The displeasure showed on His face. He stared at me.

"What's the worst thing i could do to you? He asked.

i shook my head, but i knew.

He held my collar in His hands, then put it on the bedside table.

"Take away your collar, isn't it?" He replied.

i shook my head: "No... please don't." my eyes pleaded with His.

"So you weren't ready for Me when i told you to be. you also decide to publicly tell everyone, via your blog, that your Dominant isn't doing His job properly..." He spoke sternly.

i quickly tried to interrupt Him: "No, that's not how it was meant to sound...", before He ordered me to be quiet and not say another word. He told me He would show me who was in charge, who owned me and to make sure i felt deeply submissive by the time He had finished with me.

On the up side, He did mention that He'd noticed i had included the 'fucking rod' of the stockade (it is an optional extra) and that it was "a very thoughtful idea", as He had now decided that He would utilise this feature. So that meant either being plugged with a dildo or butt plug - He would decide.

He told me to unzip His trousers and orally pleasure Him.

"Depending on how well you pleasure Me" He said, "will determine how lenient I am with your punishment, so you'd better make it good."

i obeyed, and began to lick and suck Him. He held my hair as i did so and told me what a good cock-sucker i was.

After a while, He instructed me to remove my knickers and 'assume the position' in the stockade. By then, i was feeling very hot and sticky in my rubber dress and boots, and one glove (He let me wear just the one). i knelt down into the contraption and He locked each of the wrist, ankle and neck hinges with a metal clip. He mockingly asked if i was all hot and sweaty. He said that i was dripping... from everywhere. He exposed my breasts from the top of my dress (they were pretty slippery too) and then applied nipple clips, but He ran their connecting chain over the front of the stockade's neck post. This meant that if i moved, the chain would pull on my nipples (how EVIL is that?).

He lifted up my skirt to expose my bottom and spanked me with His hand. He told me what a vulnerable position i was in (no kidding). He felt Him apply some clothes pegs (pins) to the insides of my thighs and near my pussy. Then i heard the riding crop swish behind me and felt its harsh sting against my skin. He cropped my bottom in a quick succession of short strokes, flicking the pegs off at the same time, and i tried to work through the pain. i could feel my bottom burning.

Then He set about using the 'fucking rod' and told me He had decided on the big butt plug. It had been a while since my last anal training and He said He would put that right in future. (i do enjoy the feeling of having my asshole filled.) He was kind enough to trickle some lube over my cheeks first and then i felt the plug's thick tip start to push inside me. Slowly it opened me up and i panted heavily as i began to take in its widest part (i think i'll have to post a pic of it, to gauge an idea of its size). Plugged and locked in the stockade, i felt very humiliated and i could tell He was pleased. He made me look into a mirror to take a look at myself. i had heard Him take some photos too. Then He decided i should be hooded, just to make the experience even more intense.

Does my bum look big in this?!

"So which hood shall it be - which one of the three?" He asked.

i didn't realise He was actually asking me and so i said nothing. The inflatable hood still worries me, but i couldn't be sure that He wouldn't use it on me.

"Answer Me. Which hood?" He said again.

i then realised He wanted a reply and told Him i didn't know, that He should decide.

He placed the latex hood on me and then i remember Him toying with the idea of putting the breath control hood over the top. my heart raced at this prospect. i was dripping both from the lube running down my bottom cheeks, as well as from my throbbing pussy. He then did place the other hood over my face, but not completely over my head and i had begun to feel pretty fearful by this time. i was shaking a little too. This was indeed an intense scene and SG was certainly making sure that i knew my place.

He took the second hood away after a few seconds and went back to focus on my bottom. He checked that the butt plug was still inside me and then He began to concentrate on my pussy. i heard a buzzing noise and then felt a vibe against my pussy and clit. Having my asshole filled always heightens whatever happens to my pussy and this was no exception. It felt so sensitive against my clit. i tried to squirm about but the stockade, as well as the nipple clips, reminded me of where i was.

SG held the vibe against me and then thrust it inside me. i knew i was going to cum very quickly. i asked Him for permission to orgasm and then i think He took the vibe out and wouldn't let me. i tried to compose myself and then He slid the vibe inside me again, for me to quickly ask once more. He could see i was pretty shaky by this point and agreed to let me cum. And it was such a relief! It felt pretty delicious with the butt plug still inside me. i felt exhausted.

He let me crawl into His arms once He had released me from my captivity. i felt safe, spacey and extremely submissive. As i clung to Him, and in His embrace, i felt like a little girl needing the protection of an adult. There was no doubt, in my mind, who was in charge.

And there were more intense scenes to come...