Firstly i have to say i am gracious for your comments and concerns from my last post. It’s wonderful to receive feedback on anything i write about, but it's even more meaningful when people i don't even know express their fears for me.
It certainly was a mind fuck, no doubt about that. my edge play experience was scary and exciting, but i have to say a safe one too. Trust and safety between SG and i is at the forefront of our minds and at no stage was i in any doubt of His care of my well being. The trust i put in Him is paramount and it works both ways. His trust in me is just as great.
i do have a safeword in place at all times. It's been there from the word “go”. i am able to speak through my ball gag. SG told me He had measures in place in case of an emergency. my lead can be unclipped from my collar in seconds. In the scene i wrote about, the lead itself was actually being held in His hand and not fixed to the top of the bed, as He had me believe. Blindfolded, i had no way of knowing but i trusted Him. That's the mind fuck. He always observes my body language closely to ensure i am OK.
In any scene, i know that things can easily go wrong very quickly. Edge play is not to be taken lightly and we both know and appreciate that. Life is short enough and so very precious - as i am to Him.