Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Buckle Up


He adores them on His pup.

On my harness, they envelop my body.
On my ballgag, they enclose my head.
On the monoglove, they encase my shoulders, arms and wrists.

And not forgetting my cuffs and of course, my collar – the locking buckle.

He usually makes me do them up as He watches. The monoglove is the exception, which only He can apply and He loves to strap me tightly into it.

Once His pup’s buckled up, He checks to see how tight she’s done them. Then He’ll usually tighten them, just that little bit more... another notch here and there.

Nice and tight.

Tells me He doesn’t want me to escape.

He wants me to feel safe and secure.

He wants me to remember i’m owned.

i’m all His.

and i never forget that.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Dreaming Out Loud

So another birthday came to pass...

i received my Master's present the night before. He had bought me a black latex dress and i was thrilled. Being such a fan of rubber Himself, He wanted to see His pup clad in it. He told me it was one of His dreams to meet someone who wants to dress in it as much as He does, so i guess He found me!

The dress fitted perfectly, it felt so good against the skin and so restrictive, especially across my chest. The length of it just fell to cover my bottom cheeks - so very accessible for Him. He ordered me to kneel beside the bed and He applied my wrist cuffs behind my back, then added the spreader bar to my ankles. i knelt quietly with my head bowed as i heard Him dressing behind me, in His own rubber suit. i could feel myself dripping already, my juices trickling down my leg. He stood behind me and ran His fingers down my body and saw how wet His pup was. Whispering in my ear, He told me how much He was looking forward to fucking me, which would be "very soon". i could almost feel myself floating with His touch and His words.

He stood on the bed and unzipped His rubber suit to let free His hard cock, which bobbed in front of me, and told me to kiss it. Still kneeling, i leaned forward and pressing my lips against the tip, kissed Him many times as He sighed and closed His eyes. i continued to press my lips against Him and began to taste His salty pre-cum. A few more minutes and then He was removing my restraints and telling me to get on the bed on all fours, in readiness for Him.

Lifting up the dress above my bottom cheeks, the tip of His cock rested on my pussy and He thrust Himself quickly and deeply inside me. i whimpered and murmured with His sheer animalistic action. It felt wonderful to be taken like that - His puppy being taken in the way that she should. He thrust faster and harder and with some grunting, i could hear that it wouldn't be long before He came. Within a few moments more, He did, so deliciously and hard.

Before we went to sleep, He was undecided as to whether we should sleep in our rubberwear. He said it was something He had always wanted to do. Another dream of His. He decided that we should and so for pup's 30-something birthday, she slept through the night in her rubber dress, accessorised of course by her ankle and wrist cuff and connecting chains.

pup's birthday began with her waking up feeling very rubberised, hot and horny. Master was feeling the same way and it wasn't long before He had me riding Him on the infamous vibrating cock ring, watching me writhe with pleasure. His fingers reached inside the top of my dress to tease and expose my nipples. Feeling exhilarated, lying in each others' arms, i confessed that i hadn't actually cum and He asked me why i hadn't said anything and that He was going to put things right.

He put "Operation Cum" into action. Throwing the bed covers off, He tied me spread-eagled to the bed with my cuffs and rope, as well as also deciding to add the spreader bar for extra effect. He attached it to the bed post which slightly raised my legs. It felt fantastic already to be so restrained, so the addition of that just made me even hornier.

He wanted to taste His deliciously sweet sub first and His tongue got to work on my clit, running His tongue across it horizontally which is an incredibly sensitive sensation. i shivered with the excitement of it all and it felt very special to have such a doting Master who wants to please His sub, but at the same time enjoys seeing her so helpless and at His mercy.

His wish to make His pup cum grew closer as He took my vibrator and teased my pussy, running it over my clit and pushing it inside me. He then added the vibrating bullet from His cock ring to increase the torment and pressed it hard against my clit. This was pure pleasurable torture, an intense barrage of sensations that there was no escape from. In between this, His fingers reached inside my dress to grope and pinch my nipples, gently pulling down on the rubber that encased them to expose them, which only added to my pleasure freefall.

Through all of this, He could tell i was still struggling to reach the edge (i am a hard pup to please at times!) and He said He knew what would take me there. The Hitachi wand appeared and the anticipation of knowing its magic made me quiver and i couldn't stop grinning. He watched my face intently as He slowly ran it across my pussy. He knew this would definitely make me cum, as i had mentioned to Him before that it's the one sure-fire way of producing an orgasm each time i have used it (which has only been about 5 times so far). He smiled back at me as He continued the onslaught, hovering it over my clit. As sure as anything, a few moments later, my body was writhing and bucking (as much as my bonds allowed) with orgasmic waves washing over me. Releasing me from my ties, i lay there exhausted in His arms, thanking Him for taking so much care and attention over me.

It was a lazy day and it was good to chill out mostly, in between being restrained and Him using His pup as He wished. And He made me cum again before bedtime. After adorning me in my leather harness, ballgag harness and monoglove, i felt very His and very helpless - just the way He likes it.

He lay me on my front on the bed and teased me with my newest vibrator, which has 2 knobbly bits for both clit and anal stimulation, as well as 3 pulse and a vibe setting which make it feel quite different from any other vibrator. He pushed the vibe inside my wet pussy, alternating the pulse settings, and then placed my butt plug in my ass, slowly but methodically. Feeling something inside me anally heightens everything for my pussy and clit, so the pulses were now rapidly increasing the route to my climax. It wasn't long before my orgasm crashed over me, both vaginally and anally (such an awesome thing!), after feeling Him push and pull several times on both vibe and plug together.

It was such an incredibly arousing and satisfying way to end my birthday - one i know i won't forget.

Thank You Sir for making it so very special.
i am so proud to say i am Yours.
So proud to know i belong to You.

pup x

Saturday, April 19, 2008

His Reminder

A birthday post is on its way, i promise!

Master has gone away for a week (sniff) and has instructed me to include some photos of my new present in my next post, which He wants me to publish this week. So i will be working on them very soon (sadly He didn't get to take any of me at the time).

Whilst He is gone, i am to wear my collar at night as usual, but without locking it in place (He has the spare key). i also have to wear my ball gag loosely around my neck, as a second collar. This will serve as a reminder of His ownership.

In the meantime, i thought this image was rather apt and poignant:

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Lost and Found... and a small matter of pup's birthday

pup found some strength and made it through a very difficult time last week. Thank you all for your wishes and thoughts.

This song says it all at the moment... i am in lost in Him. It feels a great place to be, especially for celebrating another birthday tomorrow. i hope to share some birthday photos soon... pup's present from her Master.

So for now, enjoy... (it's quite a kinky video too!)

Monday, April 07, 2008

Fettered Pleasures - my Collar

i love my new collar. my Master (i should start using His correct title more) chose it for me and that’s one of the reasons why i love it. The other reason is that it symbolises a new chapter in my life – my submission to Him. i made the decision to become His. It’s all happened so fast and i am trying to catch up with myself. But right now, it feels so good and i know i want this. i need to submit, to let go, to trust. With Him, i can do all that. i think He was drawn to the collar because it’s lockable too. He decides when it comes off.

The collar is from Fettered Pleasures. We decided to go and take a look around the place one weekend. After doing some research, as well as being a fascinating shop to visit, it seemed to be one of the best places for shoulder length latex gloves, so another reason for going. We certainly weren’t disappointed either.

But first, all we had to do was find the place…

i guess the snow didn’t help (yes it was snowing) and walking along the Holloway Road, we thought we’d see it straightaway… but no. Walking along to where we thought it might be, it was still unclear and i looked on as He began to check out a side street.

With my lost puppy look and confusion, this sweet old lady appeared from nowhere to ask me if i was lost and where was i looking for. i really didn’t want to embarrass both her or myself by telling her the name of the shop and hesitated before saying “just a shop, erm... it’s OK thanks” and expected her to walk on and leave us to it. But no, she continued looking at me and then asked “and the name of the shop?” and again, my tongue struggled with words and after a long silence, i blurted it out “Fettered Pleasures”, feeling myself blush.

As soon as the words were out, she smiled, nodded and began to tell me that it was just up the road, before mentioning “It has a woman in the shop window, all dressed up…you know...” Thanking her in my state of shock, the woman gave me a knowing smile, before disappearing as quickly as she had materialised. It was so very surreal!

So the gloves and the collar were purchased (a toybox update!). The shop is definitely recommended and i know we will be back at some point. Ironically, the last thing we stumbled upon (almost literally) was a big metal cage on the floor, but priced at nearly £800 it was a little beyond budget! Fascinating to look at though and later He told me He would love to get a cage in time - to keep His pup secure until He wanted to use her...

He placed the new collar on me later that evening before He made me completely helpless. This was made possible with the aide of: leather harness worn over my PVC catsuit, accessorised with ball gag harness, the monoglove attached to the chain of the ankle cuffs and topped off with my lead. Each of my limbs was held by either a strap and/or connected to a chain. He proceeded to tease me by tickling my feet, enjoying how i couldn’t defend myself and squirming uselessly, before laying me on my side to torment my now unzipped pussy… the whole experience was truly awesome. i have never felt so held in a non-physical sense before.

So i slept my first night wearing my new collar, locked of course, but also not without my night-time restraints, that are becoming a ritual whenever we share a bed together. He secured my wrist and ankle cuffs, complete with their connecting chains, and ensured the wrist cuff chain was a little shorter again (as He did last time). If that wasn’t enough (it clearly wasn’t), He also ran the length of my lead from the ankle cuff chain up to my wrist cuff chain, giving me just enough leeway to sleep with my legs straight. Isn’t He kind? In saying that, i knew He wanted to allow me enough comfort so as not to hinder my sleep, but has told me that my night-time restraints will become more stringent in time.

The following morning as i lay in bed and before He went to make breakfast, He decided His pup needed a little more security, as well as stopping her from getting into any mischief. So He looped my lead from my collar's D-ring around the trigger clip of my wrist cuffs.

He doesn't like His pup to wander far. He likes to keep her in one place (mainly His bed). Somehow i don't think she wants to be anywhere else...

Tuesday, April 01, 2008


It's April. It has to be said it's one of my favourite months.

It feels like Spring is finally here. The days are getting longer, trees and flowers are blossoming. i like this time of the year.

Life is improving for me, as you may have read recently, but i know that this month is not going to be easy for me. There are a few hurdles ahead. For certain reasons, i need to be strong, stronger than i've been before but it's scary. Somewhere inside me, i know i can make it through.

i have many wonderful friends to help to support me and one very special person in particular (no names needed) who i know will be there to hold me close and keep me safe.

So maybe, just maybe, things are going to be ok.