In The Wrong

A photo from the day after my last post.

First thing Sunday morning, SG muzzled me and tied me to the table to await my punishment...

... but what had i done wrong?

Harness That Humiliation

So we were back at SG's....

As soon as we got in, He ordered me to my knees and had placed my collar around my neck. Then He ordered me to remove my clothes and as i did so, He fetched my leather mittens. He strapped them on me and clipped them together behind my back. i was vulnerable already.

He knelt behind me and began to grope and pull at my breasts. He hadn't been that rough before, but it felt good, and i knew it would get me wet in no time. Then He produced some clothespins and placed them directly on my nipples. That was extremely tough and i winced at the severity of pain. He removed them after a few seconds because i whimpered so much and then used them on my thighs instead - much thinner skin but not quite as painful. His hand moved down to check my very wet pussy and He told me what a horny slut i was. He pulled me about a bit more (which i love) and He asked me if i wanted to see my new present. Naturally, i said yes and He told me to stay on my knees and wait for His return.

i was excited, nervous and a little fearful.

He entered the room holding a leather head harness. Aside from the SJ and sleepsack, i had never seen so many straps and buckles on one piece of apparel. He placed the harness on me and tightened up the straps. The leather smelt really nice. It fitted very snugly as He already had some of my measurements, but it had been the circumference size He had asked for recently that was the one He needed to order this. It was almost custom-made. The section around my mouth was a cutaway hole. The whole harness felt very weird, but very secure. There wasn't one part of my head that didn't feel covered by a strap. It made me feel very submissive in no time.

"Now i bet you're wondering what's going to fill that hole...hmmm?" He asked, but didn't expect an answer.

He unzipped his jeans and pulled down His pants, His erection stood proud.

"You know what to do" He told me.

i leaned in to take Him in my mouth and i began to suck and lick Him through the hole. He groaned with pleasure and told me i was a good pup. i continued until He pulled away from me - He had other plans for me.

He disappeared again to fetch the next part of the present - the inflatable penis gag and breather tube. The gag looked huge and i was getting a bit more worried now. He presented the gag up to my mouth, so i could see what it was like and then began to feed it through the hole. It filled the length of my mouth and i thought it may almost be too much to keep in. i was scared that it would make me reach. It almost did and i tried to adjust it inside my mouth, although it didn't have anywhere else to go. i tried to calm myself and He told me to breathe through the tube and that everything would be ok. Once in, the gag has a leather piece with press studs that clip onto the mouth hole, that ensures it stays in place. He made sure these were clipped on and stood back to admire His pup.

He released my mittens from behind my back and made me crawl into the hall to kneel before the mirror, so i could take a look at myself. i found it quite hard to do as i felt vulnerable and the gag made me feel so humiliated. It was certainly going to keep me pretty quiet too and SG delighted in this prospect. He sat behind me to grope me again and then put his finger on the end of the breathing tube for a few seconds. my air supply stopped and i tried not to panic. i knew i was safe with Him - i trust SG with my life. It's in these moments that He has the power to do anything. He released the tube and made sure i was ok.

Then He told me how much He wanted to fuck me.

He made me crawl back to the living room and to 'assume the position' (this means to get on all fours and spread my legs). i knew what was coming next. He pushed Himself deep inside my wet pussy and it felt so delicious. Those first few plunges always feel so good and it wasn't long before He pumped away at His bitch. The gag was very effective in keeping me from making much noise at all. i can squeal and scream in the throes of sex, but this gag kept me rather quiet.

As i remember, just before i came, i think He removed the gag and i could feel myself on the edge of a tingling orgasm. Then as it washed over me, which felt so utterly amazing, i had a sudden outburst of emotion and i burst into tears with happiness and relief. It was an incredible moment and i know that SG wasn't sure if i was upset or not. i reassured Him i was fine and He continued to thrust inside me, but i think this might have taken His mind off the job in hand, or rather, in pussy. He told me He wanted to hold me, to comfort me in bed. He realised how intense the scene had been for me. He removed the harness from His exhausted and teary-eyed pet, then helped her crawl (as that's all i had the energy for) into the bedroom.

i curled up beside Him in bed and He held me tightly in His arms.

i felt safe once again.

(Sadly, no photos were taken of this scene, but there are some pics of the new harness gag from our rubber fun last weekend - another post for another day - it will be worth the wait!)

HNT - Embossed

i shot this photo especially with HNT in mind... then experimented with the 'emboss' tool in Photoshop and created this:


But as we all know, there is only one Boss i trust...

... physically... mentally... emotionally.

Another Spanking Time For pup (video)

Whilst i gather my thoughts for my next post of scene writing, here's something to wet your appetite (or anything else). It's my 'harder than usual' spanking from SG. He is getting to know how much i love pain and is now building up to longer sessions.

The film seems to speed up halfway through and is quite funny to watch (a bit like one of those old black and white silent movies). But it left me in no doubt how much my Owner loves to pink my bottom - and i was pretty silent, due to the muzzle gag.

Again, it's here for a limited time only - enjoy!

Speechless

As no-one guessed the answer to this post, i suppose i'll have to tell you. Although from J3 and Wendy's comment, i found out that SG had already let them in on His mystery purchase.

The latest addition to our toybox turned out to be an Ultimate Bondage Gag Harness, complete with inflatable breather gag - and it's a fairly scary-looking piece of kit!

And SG was keen to use it on me, as soon as He had me back in His lair last weekend...

How SG Found His Kink

A couple of weeks ago, pup posed the following question on her blog: "When and how did you discover your kinky side?" I suspect that's an intriguing and tricky one for many of us, since it's likely to refer to feelings and urges that first surfaced many moons ago. For my part, I can't point to one single watershed moment where my 'nilla innocence was lost. Rather, it's been a gradual process of discovery, accelerated hugely over the past decade or so by that rather handy gadget called the interweb - of which a little more later.

Thinking way, way back, my earliest kinky stirrings probably occurred even before puberty. I remember enjoying my older sister's Nancy Drew mystery books, where the plucky teen sleuth would inevitably be captured by the villain just before the denouement. If was really lucky, there would be a monochrome pen-drawn illustration of our heroine bound and gagged on the floor. I must have been only seven at the time.

A couple of years later, I had an "escapology competition" with my younger female cousin. I bound her wrists and timed her escape - and she did the same to me. I don't recall feeling aroused but I do remember feeling mortified when my mother came in and found me desperately trying to wriggle free. She didn't make a big deal of it. The same cousin I restrained using a lifejacket as a sort of SJ, while we were on a sailing holiday - quite possibly in the same year - putting it on her with her arms trapped inside it. This is probably where my fetish for inflatable bondage started, too. I rarely see her these days, but I'm sure she remembers those experiences - not that they'll ever be discussed!

A BBC TV adaptation of Tom Sharpe's "Blott on the Landscape" in the early 80s alerted me to the fact that other people got a real kick out of tying and being tied. I featured extended scenes of bedroom bondage played out between George Cole (playing a dodgy toff with a taste for submission) and Julia McKenzie (playing his dizzy Mistress). In one particularly memorable scene, his wife finds him tied to the bed in baby clothes with a dummy strapped in his mouth.

I immediately started devouring all the Tom Sharpe books I could lay my mitts on. Most of them were unashamedly sexually explicit and kinky. I didn't care that he was satirising the corrupt ruling classes by disdainfully treating their sexual peccadillos as an Achilles heel. I just wanted to know more about rubber fetish, breath play etc.

The first music video that featured fetish wear which aroused me was one by funk-rocker Rick "Superfreak" James. I can't recall the song and I've yet to find it on YouTube, but it featured a bevy of women playing with each other in black, shiny PVC or latex. I saw it maybe twice, but it left a big impression on me. If anyone knows which one it is, I'd be very grateful if you could let me know. It's probably appalling, but it's formative nevertheless.

But it wasn't until the web came along in the late 90s that a whole cornucopia of kink opened up. This seems crazy now, but I actually used to stay late at work to surf early bondage web sites such as Secret Magazine, where there were actual pictures of sexy women all tied up and looking like they were enjoying it. I found out about delights such as single gloves, ball gags and sleepsacks - and it's been downhill ever since! ;-)

SingleGlove

O Is For Orgasm - A Meme

On catching up with blogs, i discovered this orgasmic meme on Vanilla Impaired. Oh yes! So i thought i'd add my input to the mix:

1. What’s your favourite way to have an orgasm?
Being taken from behind - doggy style (what else?!) It excites me greatly and makes me feel very animalistic.

2. Do you use a sex toy? Hands? or both?
Yes - sometimes a toy, sometimes hands - sometimes both!

3. Do you have a favourite time of day or night that you like to pleasure yourself or have sex?
There's something about Saturday afternoons.... can't put my finger on it (well, that's not strictly true!) and definitely sleepy Sunday mornings - they are wondrous!

4. Do you feel you have different types of orgasms?
Yes i do - i have finally realised that i am able to have different orgasms - and hard to believe, it's only something that i've discovered in the last few years.

5. Do you have a position or a technique that always guarantees an orgasm?
Aside from a Hitachi wand??! That's a sure-fire way to guarantee one. As for positions, it seems to be when i'm being taken from behind, or bending over a table, and being restrained and gagged in some way - that whole combination works for me.

6. Is having your clit directly stimulated pleasurable for you? What about after an orgasm?
Yes, it's very pleasurable! It does vary from time to time. Sometimes it's ready for more after a short while and other times it will just be annoying.

7. Do you masturbate/pleasure yourself?
Uhmmm..... what do you think??! i actually do believe that everyone does (even if they deny it).

8. Has your self pleasuring repertoire/routine/technique changed or evolved over time?
Not a great amount, i have to admit! An old faithful technique seems to be a favourite for me, but i have always enjoyed new ways of doing things. So it's a mix really.

9. Are sex toys part of your self pleasuring or with a partner? Or both?
Both - toys form part of my self pleasuring, as well as when SG uses them on me, as He loves to force me to orgasm. i don't have much of a say in the matter at times. i've used a vibe on Him too and that was good fun!

10. If you enjoy using sex toys, how often do you upgrade your equipment?
Not much since getting the Hitachi! It has been an amazing toy and the others do get overshadowed by it, because it is just so amazing. But i am always happy to experiment with more toys! i have my eye on a Lelo...

11. Whats the most intense orgasm you have ever had?
i think that's way too personal to share!

12. How often do you orgasm? Daily, more than once a day, weekly, monthly….???
When SG allows me... so that could be several times a day when i am with Him. Through the week, it might be just the once or twice. It varies, but i have to ask for permission first if i want to play.

13. Do you regard orgasm to be a stress reliever?
For sure! It certainly helps me get off to sleep too.

14. What happens to you after orgasm? Full of energy, a bit lala or ready to go to sleep?
As above - usually makes me feel very relaxed and sleepy... zzzzz.

15. Have you ever squirted?
No, i don't think i ever have. It's something that intrigues me and i've read about women that can.

16. Do you fantasize when you masturbate? Or do you just get right down to it?
Sometimes, or SG will describe a scene for me to imagine in my head. Then there are other times, when we just get right down and dirty!

17. What do you like about having an orgasm? Is it important you have an orgasm every time?
It's just the most incredible feeling that when it's good, it erupts through my body and makes me feel so alive. When it's like that, it makes me crave an orgasm every time - i know i am greedy and then i expect even more!

Use Your Head

So, SG's 'purchase relating to the circumference of my head' is being delivered at some point today.

Shall we have a guess what it could be...?

(i'm just off to bed now and He's given me a free play... woo hoo!)

S'mitten

It's been a busy time for me, hence the quietness...

For all of those curious cats (and imps), here's the first peek of the new bondage mittens - as modelled by SG(!). He sent me this photo as a teaser. i should quickly add that it's probably the only time He will be wearing them!

i got to experience them for the first time at the weekend. Wearing them made me feel pretty vulnerable, especially when SG used the D-rings to attach them to the bedpost. And not before blindfolding, ball-gagging and spanking me, to then have His way with me - doggy-style.... and it was delicious!